Girl, you are doing too much

was sitting at a table listening to a woman talk about how she manages to fit so many activities into her four year old daughter’s schedule. like… all of them. every activity. on time. every week. and i just sat there thinking — why are we even talking about this? why not just go for a walk? why all the rush? but then — me being me — i had to go find the answer. maybe she’s trying to keep her daughter from gaining weight. when you grow up overweight, you want to protect your kids from that same story. that kind of thing doesn’t leave you. so you fill the schedule instead. or maybe this is just how she shows love. keeping her child so busy there’s no space for anything she can’t control. i don’t know which one it is. maybe both. but then i turned it on myself. because i always do. i almost wished i could do half of what she does. and then i had to remind myself — i used to. i did those things. somewhere along the way i stopped. and that’s the part i’m sitting with. because i can change that. i can always start again. and so can you. lol.